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Ignite Day 3 The Flame

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Read His Words Before Ours!

Matthew 28:16-20
Acts 2:42-47
Luke 14:25-34

Ignite, Day 3

Enter Ignatius and Polycarp. Or, as I affectionately call them, “Poly & Iggy.”

Where did we start?
Here is The Wick preceding The Flame!

And before that?
Yes, that would be our friend Paul, or Saul… You’ll have to step into his story with us on Sketched V!

What happened before Paul?
Oh yes, those were the Seeds scattered by the growing church right after Jesus ascended and the Holy Spirit descended. Don’t miss that!

But that brings me back to my friends, and fellow igniters for the Gospel, Polycarp and Ignatius… theirs is a story to tell!

Ignatius
Ignatius lived in what I have to imagine must have been one of the most exciting times in church history. He was born in 35 A.D., most likely just after Jesus died and was resurrected. He grew up in those early years, and was considered one of the first-generation believers. Ignatius became the church father of Antioch during his time, and was more commonly referred to as the bishop. (Yes, the same Antioch at which the Holy Spirit filled the Upper Room of believers – and the city in which followers of Jesus “Christus” were first dubbed “Christians.”)

Ignatius is most famously known as one of the church’s earliest martyrs, but he was also one of the first-generation disciples. Although he was likely not born until just after Jesus ascended, as a young man in Ephesus, Ignatius was personally discipled by the apostle John.

I have to stop right here for a moment. Can you even imagine being “personally discipled” by one of Jesus’ own disciples who physically walked with Him? Who prayed with Him? Who saw Him turn water to wine and call Lazarus to life? Who saw His resurrected body and witnessed His ascension?

Wow. Chills.

Ignatius lived to the age of 72, and by all accounts, he was exceptionally full of fire and boldness. (I mean, the man pouring into him was poured into by Jesus Himself, in the flesh. How could you NOT be?) Ignatius was the first to speak about the virgin birth of Jesus outside of the New Testament, and he is also credited for the earliest recorded use of the phrase “catholic church,” with regard to the universal church. His heart echoed Christ’s regarding unity, and he openly denounced division as “the beginning of evil.” Throughout his years, Ignatius wrote many letters to the church at various locations, the majority of which addressed the threat of false teachers who asserted that Christ did not actually appear in the flesh.

In a nutshell, history shows Ignatius as a man fixed on truth. Ignatius knew truth, applied it, lived it, and spoke it. He lived and died with single-minded purpose, refusing to stop until the very end.

Ignatius was arrested, most likely on charges of “atheism,” and escorted from Antioch to Rome under guard of ten soldiers. At every stop along the way, he was able to meet with leaders of the local church there, and he wrote seven letters to them with the help of a secretary. To the church at Smyrna (led by the bishop Polycarp), he wrote “Follow, all of you, the bishop, as Jesus Christ followed the father.”

The exact details of his death are unknown, but the heartbeat of his life can be felt in his words:

“Now I begin to be a disciple… Let fire and cross, flocks of beasts, broken bones, dismemberment…come upon me, so long as I attain to Jesus Christ.”
– Ignatius, Bishop of Antioch

Polycarp
Polycarp was born in 69 A.D., and was appointed as bishop of the church at Smyrna by the apostles, yes, the original apostles you read of in your Bible! He was actually a friend and disciple of Ignatius, as well as a disciple of the Apostle John. When Ignatius, under guard, was en route to his execution and writing letters to several church bodies, Polycarp’s church was a recipient of one such letter.

As one of the first second-generation disciples, Polycarp was alive when the church was growing rapidly. He became a follower of “Christus” as a child, and his faith and boldness were apparent in many documented instances. He was adamant that the truth and message of Christ would not be distorted, and he didn’t flinch when confronting early Gnostics and heretics. In fact, Polycarp is credited with converting many Gnostics to Christianity. Though he held little formal education, his one writing to the church at Philippi conveys he was both humble and direct.

Polycarp’s death is the first recorded martyrdom in post New Testament church history. At the age of 86, he was arrested on charges unknown. After a surprisingly witty banter with the proconsul, Statius Quadratus, he was burned at the stake.

His response when the soldiers grabbed him to nail him to the stake leaves little question about the strength of his faith. “Leave me as I am. For he who grants me to endure the fire will enable me also to remain on the pyre unmoved, without the security you desire from nails.”

Not unlike the fire that burned so many martyrs of the early church, the flame of faith continued to burn brighter.

These early fathers were on fire for Jesus, delivering the message of Christ readily and often. Their whole-heart, whole-life, bold faith inspired those around them to be bold in turn, and the church ignited.

I’m not going to lie to you. Studying the lives and deaths of these men was not easy. Their willingness to go and grow, and die for what they believed in forced me to take a hard look at my own faith and how I walk it out. There was guilt. There were tears.

And then, there was hope.

Their devotion was unmatched. Their fervor inspired. These men lived their whole lives for Jesus and His message, and after a lifetime of devotion, they gave the ultimate sacrifice to be with their Jesus.

What would this place look like if we lived our days and nights with that kind of fervor?

What would it look like if we set aside our cultural comforts and embraced “Christus” and His message the way they did?

What would it look like if we denounced our social media-centric lives, and chose to cultivate actual Biblical community instead?

What would it look like if we cut through the distractions of this age and actually began to crave time with the One Who makes our heart beat?

Would our youth grow and return and thrive in the Church? And would they bring others with them, because the Church wouldn’t be a building at all, but a family?
Would our denominational division start to look less like walls and more like bridges?
Would we work together to fix the mess we’ve helped to create, in love?

And would the flame begin to grow like it once did, because WE would carry it boldly?
Love, would we start to catch fire again?

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Sketched V Day 9 Paul, The Freedom Fighter: Digging Deeper

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Digging Deeper Days

Finding the original intent of Scripture and making good application to our everyday lives as we become equipped to correctly handle the Word of Truth!

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The Questions

1) What is the significance of Saul’s blindness lasting for 3 days (verse 9)?

2) As we read in yesterday’s journey study, Saul was a Pharisee well-trained in praying.  How might his prayers have been different during his time of blindness and waiting?

3) What might have Ananias been feeling when Jesus called him to go to Saul?

4) What does Jesus mean in verses 15 and 16? What is His mission for Saul?

Acts 9:9-19

10 There was a disciple in Damascus named Ananias, and the Lord said to him in a vision, “Ananias.”
“Here I am, Lord,” he replied.
11 “Get up and go to the street called Straight,” the Lord said to him, “to the house of Judas, and ask for a man from Tarsus named Saul, since he is praying there. 12 In a vision he has seen a man named Ananias coming in and placing his hands on him so that he may regain his sight.”

13 “Lord,” Ananias answered, “I have heard from many people about this man, how much harm he has done to your saints in Jerusalem. 14 And he has authority here from the chief priests to arrest all who call on your name.”

15 But the Lord said to him, “Go, for this man is my chosen instrument to take my name to Gentiles, kings, and Israelites. 16 I will show him how much he must suffer for my name.”
17 Ananias went and entered the house. He placed his hands on him and said, “Brother Saul, the Lord Jesus, who appeared to you on the road you were traveling, has sent me so that you may regain your sight and be filled with the Holy Spirit.”

18 At once something like scales fell from his eyes, and he regained his sight. Then he got up and was baptized. 19 And after taking some food, he regained his strength.

Original Intent

1) What is the significance of Saul’s blindness lasting for 3 days (verse 9)?
We may read this as a small detail, but this would have been significant for Ananias and the original readers of Acts. In Matthew 12, the Pharisees asked Jesus for a sign. He answers that the only sign to be given is the sign of Jonah: “For as Jonah was in the belly of the huge fish three days and three nights, so the Son of Man will be in the heart of the earth three days and three nights.” (Matthew 12:40) The people didn’t understand what Jesus meant at the time, but after His resurrection and ascension it all became clear to the believers. Ananias would have recognized the parallel between the 3 days that Jonah spent in the belly of the whale, the 3 days that Jesus spent in the grave and the 3 days that Saul spent in darkness. Scripture doesn’t say exactly why Saul was blinded, but it likely wasn’t meant as a punishment, but was a result of his intense encounter with Jesus. Those 3 days were spent in reflection and prayer before he began his new life in Christ.

2) As we read in yesterday’s journey study, Saul was a Pharisee well-trained in praying.  How might his prayers have been different during his time of blindness and waiting?
The Pharisees followed the law to the letter, including in their prayer life. Pride was at the heart of their prayers. In Luke 18 Jesus tells a parable of a Pharisee and a tax collector. The Pharisee prays aloud: “‘God, I thank you that I’m not like other people—greedy, unrighteous, adulterer, or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week; I give a tenth of everything I get.” (Luke 18:11-12) In Matthew 6, Jesus instructs His listeners not to pray like the Pharisees. Instead, He says, “But when you pray, go into your private room, shut your door, and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.” (Matthew 6:5-6) Isn’t this a picture of Saul during the 3 days he spent blind? God saw him in the secret of Saul’s blindness and sent his reward in the form of Ananias and the Holy Spirit.

3) What might have Ananias been feeling when Jesus called him to go to Saul?
We get a peek into what Ananias might have been feeling in verses 13 and 14. He was afraid! Ananias is not being unreasonable. He had heard of this man Saul and he was the last person Ananias wanted to visit! Why would he put himself (and possibly his friends and family) at risk to go to this man? Just two chapters before, we read about the first martyr – the stoning of Stephen (Acts 7:54-60). The very next verse said Saul approved of putting him to death! Sometimes being obedient to God’s call is risky. Ananias knew the danger, but he was obedient to what was commanded of him. He was so confident in God’s plan that he called Saul “brother”!

4) What does Jesus mean in verses 15 and 16? What is His mission for Saul?
In God’s perfect wisdom, He does the unexpected. He chose Saul to be the instrument He would use to carry the Gospel into the world. Not one of the apostles or original disciples, but Saul, an enemy of The Way. Jesus tells Ananias that Saul would bring the Gospel to not only the Israelites, but to Gentiles and kings. God knew how Saul was uniquely equipped to bring the Gospel to the Gentiles, rather than one of His apostles, like Peter or John, but God’s plan wouldn’t be without hardship. Jesus tells Ananias that Saul will suffer for the Gospel. Indeed, we see throughout Acts and Paul’s letters that he endures much suffering for the sake of Christ. “Because of him I have suffered the loss of all things and consider them as dung, so that I may gain Christ,” (Philippians 3:8). Following God’s call doesn’t mean an easy path for Saul, but the suffering he endures pales in comparison to the joy he has in Christ.

Everyday Application

1) What is the significance of Saul’s blindness lasting for 3 days (verse 9)?
Have you spent time reflecting on the 3 days Jesus spent in the grave? It’s easy for us to speed-read through the end of the gospels and forget to pause and remember. We read about Jesus’ brutal death and jump right to His resurrection. Don’t we all love to read about his encounter with Mary in the garden? (John 20:11-18) Saul knew all about Jesus and what His disciples had claimed. I suspect much of his 3 days of blindness were spent reflecting on the 3 days Jesus spent in darkness. Let us not fail to remember the weight of Jesus’ death and the miracle of His resurrection on which our faith hinges!

2) As we read in yesterday’s journey study, Saul was a Pharisee well-trained in praying.  How might his prayers have been different during his time of blindness and waiting?
Have you prayed “Pharisee” prayers? Were you a “church kid”, so you know the right words to say, but you don’t mean it in your heart. When was the last time you talked to God in secret? Maybe you don’t even know where to start when it comes to talking to God. Take heart, you are not alone! Jesus assured His followers, “your Father knows the things you need before you ask him.” (Matthew 6:8) Instead, Jesus gives us guidance for how to pray in the form of the Lord’s Prayer just a few verses later (verses 9-13). When you don’t know what to pray, start here.

3) What might have Ananias been feeling when Jesus called him to go to Saul?What might God be calling you to do that doesn’t make sense? Maybe there’s even risk involved. Are you afraid of what being obedient might mean for your life? Remember that God’s ways are always greater than ours and we can trust Him to be faithful to His perfect plan.
Similarly, is there anyone you feel like is unredeemable? Can you think of someone so far from Christ it seems they will never come to Him? Take encouragement from Saul’s conversion! Saul was the last person the early church expected to become a Christian, let alone become one of the most influential people in history for the sake of Christ! No one is too far from Christ to come to salvation.

4) What does Jesus mean in verses 15 and 16? What is His mission for Saul?
Just as God had a plan for Saul, He has a specific plan and purpose for us. It might be difficult and it will involve suffering (John 16:33). But we read in James that our trials for the sake of Christ will not return void. “Consider it a great joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you experience various trials, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 4 And let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.” (James 1:2-4) Mature and complete. Lacking nothing. Isn’t that what we desire as Christians? Be encouraged by Paul, James, Peter, and other leaders of the early Church. God’s plan is perfect, and it includes you!

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The GT Weekend! Sketched V Week 1

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The GT Weekend!

At Gracefully Truthful, weekends aren’t for “checking out”.
Use this time to invite the Almighty’s fullness into you life in a deeper way!
Saturdays and Sundays are a chance to
reflect, rest, and re-center our lives onto Christ.
Don’t miss the opportunity to connect with other women in prayer,
rest your soul in reflective journaling,
and spend time worshiping the Creator who
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Worship Through Journaling

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1) Saul was thrown off by the thought that forgiveness was prayed for on his behalf. Suppose this was you. How would you respond? Angry and defensive? Thoughtful and curious? It’s easy for believers to hurry through the gospel story that “Jesus died to save us from our sin.” Forgiveness is an incredible gift. Without shame and condemnation, but for the purpose of reflection, think and pray through some sinful struggles you’ve had. What does it mean that forgiveness has been extended to you? Are you willing to forgive yourself?

2) Self-righteousness was Saul’s forte. He had created himself, trusted no other, and depended on no one to give him anything he had not earned. I don’t know about you, but this girl can relate! I like trusting myself, it’s safer that way. I like thinking I made myself who I am. Thinking I am fully self-reliant and independent fills my heart with something that can indeed feel good for a while, but in the end, is bitter poison. It’s pride. Where does pride most often rear its head in your life? What would it mean to recognize that you have no power to make yourself more righteous? Even if you are a believer.

3) Stacy’s Journey Study yesterday put us in the shoes of several different people, all who realized that, just like Saul, their own hearts had relied on their own strength instead of the Spirit of God’s. Where have you trusted your strength and your path? A good indicator of this is stress, chaos, anxiety, and absence of peace. Take a moment to identify those areas clearly in your mind and on paper, the spend some time reading through Philippians or Galatians out loud and let the truth and freedom of the Lord bring you abundance!

Praying Scripture back to the One who wrote it in the first place is a great way to jump start our prayer-life! Pray this passage from Ephesians 4:31-32 back to the Lord and
let His Spirit speak to you through it!

Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander
be put away from you, along with all malice.
Be kind to one another, tenderhearted,
forgiving one another,
as God in Christ forgave you.

Prayer Journal
Father, Your abundant love is beautiful and overwhelming in its endlessness. I give mental assent and gratefulness for your forgiveness driven by this love, but forgiveness is something I struggle to extend to myself.

Sometimes, my sin is so apparent and my drops in shame at how my sin causes another hurt or leads them away from You instead of toward You. Other times, I feel “pretty good”, as if I don’t sin. Keep my heart humble, help me listen to Your whispers of love and forgiveness. Remind that Your forgiveness is complete and eternal, just like Your love!

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Sketched V Day 5 Saul, All Of Us

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Read His Words Before Ours!

Galatians 5:16-25
Psalm 62:5-8
Luke 10:38-42
Matthew 11:28-30

Sketched V, Day 5

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, and self-control.”
I remember when my life didn’t reflect these words I’d penned through the Holy Spirit’s power.
I was so devoted to the law I missed it’s point.
I missed Jesus.
I chased everything except Christ.
Though He came to save me from working to achieve righteousness,
I savagely continued insisting on preserving the law in me.
Futile though it was.
How hard I worked! Yet how great the price!
How grateful I am for that blessed day Jesus met me on the road to Damascus as His grace arrested me! A grace so great, it freed me to walk in step with His Spirit, unleashing me forever from the heavy chains of performance and not enough.
I am Paul, freed to live by the Spirit.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, and self-control.”
As I shared these words with the congregation this morning, I remembered the past week and its obligations. It was packed with meetings, counseling appointments, decisions, and of course, sermon preparation. I moved as if on autopilot.
Regrettably, I wonder how many times I overlooked the opportunity to show kindness or love.  I know my family would say I’ve been more impatient, but they know I’m busy, it’s simply the reality of being a pastor.
I know I didn’t spend the time I normally do on the sermon, praying through each word, asking for a fresh perspective from the Spirit and letting my words be His.
Will He still do His work without my strivings?
I am thankful for the gift of speaking and the calling of my job,
but the cost is too great to do this without Jesus.
These words from the Lord are vitally important. I will choose to rest in the fresh word He has for me daily.
I’m your pastor, freed to live by the Spirit.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, and self-control.”
When I read these words today, I can’t help but reflect upon my actions the last few days realizing how little they describe me.  I have looked forward to the opportunity to share God’s word with others, but with a deadline looming, I’ve felt less inspired and more stressed, impatient and insecure.
I’ve shown irritability toward my family and neglected precious time with Jesus
in order to “get things done”.
How subtle the shift has been from Christ’s righteousness to self-reliance!
How easy it would be to begin writing without asking for guidance from Jesus as I share His grace with others who need Him as well.
I wrote this Journey Study; I’m Stacy, freed to walk in the Spirit.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, and self-control.”
As I am confronted with these words, I don’t recognize the person I’ve become.
If I’m honest, I’m bitter, angry, selfish and sad.
Every day is a flurry of activity as I get the kids up and fed, off to school and then attend to the needs of the little ones. Lunch, naps, housework, planning dinner and grocery trips, keeping up with the ever-changing demands of raising kids, and striving to be the best wife possible. Date nights, family Bible studies, teachable moments, small group, church responsibilities, my list goes on.
I see other moms thriving, or so it seems from their social media accounts.
How do they have happy kids and husbands, clean homes, and deep spiritual lives
when I feel like I’m drowning?
I miss the days when I could spend long periods of time in God’s Word.
There is so much to do now, I don’t always make the time.
When I do steal a few moments away with the Lord, my mind is always elsewhere and guilt is everywhere. I must get everything done, but at what cost?
My kids hear me speak of Jesus, but my tone doesn’t always reflect His peace.
These words invite me to a different pace. How I need to be reminded to keep in step with the Spirit and not my own frenzy!
I’m the mom you see in the car line, freed to walk in the Spirit.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, and self-control.”
Hearing the pastor share these words this morning, I notice how “accomplishing”, “striving”, and “doing” aren’t included.
Oh, neither is “exhausted”, which is my personal definition of life.
The kids are gone, but life never slowed down.
After all, they still have needs such as babysitting, and I love spending time with those precious grandbabies! There are so many volunteer needs at church or lonely friends, it seems I can never do enough.
At home the needs of my husband are greater after his injury. Taking a part-time job became a necessity to help with bills. I know I need to spend more time personally with Jesus, but He has called me to take care of the ones I love.
What if these words are calling me, inviting me, to spend time in a way that won’t leave me empty. What if learning the rhythm of the Savior is the answer to walking in peace?
I’m the grandma down the street from you, freed to walk in the Spirit.

~~

Dear friends, it’s so easy as capable, busy women to speed through our days “doing all the things” we feel we must without acknowledging our necessity for Jesus.
As in Mary & Martha’s case,
dinner does need to get on the table,
but Jesus commended Mary for choosing the better thing.

Jesus invites us to sit at His feet, learning from Him as we center our lives around dwelling with Him. Here, in this sweet spot, “all the things” fall into a more pleasant pattern and our souls are lightened instead of burdened.
They key isn’t in what we do or don’t do, it’s found in the fuel we do it by.
The more time we spend in the presence of our Father,
the more we will exude His fruit and find His peace.
Come, Daughter, become freed to walk in the Spirit.

His invitation awaits our acceptance….
“Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Take up My yoke and learn from Me,
because I am lowly and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30

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In this series, we are stepping into the shoes of various characters throughout history. Some are biblical, some are well-known in modern day times, and some are people our writers know personally. We do our best to research the culture and times surrounding these individuals to give an accurate representation of their first-person perspectives on life and the world, but we can’t be 100% accurate. “Sketched” is our best interpretation of how these characters view(ed) God, themselves, and the world around them. Our hope is that by stepping into their everyday, we will see our own lives a little differently!
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Sketched V Day 4 Saul, The Persecutor: Digging Deeper

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Finding the original intent of Scripture and making good application to our everyday lives as we become equipped to correctly handle the Word of Truth!

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The Questions

1) Why did Paul consider himself “fortunate” to give his defense against the Jews’ accusations to King Agrippa? (verse 2)

2) In Paul’s defense presentation, why was it important for him to give testimony of his previous background as a Pharisee?  (verses 4-11)

 3)  For what specific “crime” did the Jews desire Paul to be jailed or put to death?

Acts 26:1-23

Agrippa said to Paul, “You have permission to speak for yourself.”
Then Paul stretched out his hand and began his defense: 2 “I consider myself fortunate, that it is before you, King Agrippa, I am to make my defense today against all the accusations of the Jews, 3 especially since you are very knowledgeable about all the Jewish customs and controversies. Therefore, I beg you to listen to me patiently.
4 “All the Jews know my way of life from my youth, which was spent from the beginning among my own people and in Jerusalem. 5 They have known me for a long time, if they are willing to testify, that according to the strictest sect of our religion I lived as a Pharisee. 6 And now I stand on trial because of the hope in what God promised to our ancestors, 7 the promise our twelve tribes hope to reach as they earnestly serve him night and day. King Agrippa, I am being accused by the Jews because of this hope. 8 Why do any of you consider it incredible that God raises the dead? 9 In fact, I myself was convinced that it was necessary to do many things in opposition to the name of Jesus of Nazareth. 10 I actually did this in Jerusalem, and I locked up many of the saints in prison, since I had received authority for that from the chief priests. When they were put to death, I was in agreement against them. 11 In all the synagogues I often punished them and tried to make them blaspheme. Since I was terribly enraged at them, I pursued them even to foreign cities.

12 “I was traveling to Damascus under these circumstances with authority and a commission from the chief priests. 13 King Agrippa, while on the road at midday, I saw a light from heaven brighter than the sun, shining around me and those traveling with me. 14 We all fell to the ground, and I heard a voice speaking to me in Aramaic, ‘Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads.’
15 “I asked, ‘Who are you, Lord?’
“And the Lord replied: ‘I am Jesus, the one you are persecuting. 16 But get up and stand on your feet. For I have appeared to you for this purpose, to appoint you as a servant and a witness of what you have seen and will see of me. 17 I will rescue you from your people and from the Gentiles. I am sending you to them 18 to open their eyes so that they may turn from darkness to light and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a share among those who are sanctified by faith in me.’
19 “So then, King Agrippa, I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision. 20 Instead, I preached to those in Damascus first, and to those in Jerusalem and in all the region of Judea, and to the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, and do works worthy of repentance. 21 For this reason the Jews seized me in the temple and were trying to kill me. 22 To this very day, I have had help from God, and I stand and testify to both small and great, saying nothing other than what the prophets and Moses said would take place— 23 that the Messiah must suffer, and that, as the first to rise from the dead, he would proclaim light to our people and to the Gentiles.”

Original Intent

1) Why did Paul consider himself “fortunate” to give his defense against the Jews’ accusations to King Agrippa? (verse 2)
Paul shows respect for King Agrippa and his position (1 Timothy 2:1-2). He also considers it to be in his favor that Agrippa was quite familiar with Jewish laws, customs, and “was not ignorant of the beginnings of Christianity”.  (E.F Bruce & S Kistemaker) Paul knew how to present his case, and the gospel, by combining courtesy and respect with truth.
Of most importance, and in keeping with his life’s mission, Paul recognized this opportunity to share the gospel to those not yet having received Christ as Savior.  The Holy Spirit was with Paul, filling him with wisdom and confidence. (Luke 12:11-12)
Taking his own preaching to heart, Paul was “ready, in season and out of season, to preach the Word of God.” (2 Timothy 4:2)  Again, the Spirit of God reminds through Paul in Colossians 3:17 reminds us, “Whatever you do, in word or in deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.”

2) In Paul’s defense presentation, why was it important for him to give testimony of his previous background as a Pharisee?  (verses 4-11)
It was important Paul established his religious roots and rich background as a well-respected Jewish Pharisee to the king because Agrippa himself was “very knowledgeable about all Jewish customs and controversies.” (verse 3) Paul leveraged their common ground to not simply further his case, but to share the gospel.
Paul wanted King Agrippa to see his conversion and ministry set against the backdrop of his early history as an orthodox Jew, adhering to the strictest party, the Pharisees.
Paul’s opponents knew his past as well as his current identity and were able to examine his personal life. “All the Jews know my way of life from childhood on.” (verse 4) Paul was not afraid to confess who he had once been as he worked to blast Christians out of existence. Saul “had an obsession against Christians”.  (E. F. Bruce) Paul hid nothing, instead, he allowed his transparency to speak volumes of the genuine, real power of the gospel to radically transform him. (Galatians 1:13) Once his background and authenticity had been made abundantly clear, Paul shares of his dramatic conversion to Christ, bringing him full circle as to why he was now being persecuted and jailed for preaching Christ.

3)  For what specific “crime” did the Jews desire Paul to be jailed or put to death?
As Paul stood before King Agrippa, he made a point to call out why he was being accused and put on trial. His crime? Hope. Hope promised for centuries. Hope that appeared when God took on flesh in the form of a baby in a manger. Hope that died on a cross, then rose victorious to conquer Death forever. Paul was put on trial because he believed, lived, and preached the incorruptible hope of the Gospel. (Acts 26:6-8)
Many Jews (not all) rejected Jesus as the Messiah the prophets had prophesized would one day come to rescue them. They missed Jesus because He wasn’t the rescuer they were looking for. They wanted an earthly rule and reign. They wanted a powerful king to crush their human enemies. To them, claiming Jesus to be Messiah was blasphemy.
Paul turned his back on everything he had once believed because Jesus appeared to him, redeeming him, and making him new. His eyes were opened to see that all prophetic content of the Old Testament was fulfilled in the suffering and resurrection of Jesus the Messiah. Paul could not deny that power belonging to any but God alone, and he gave his life to preaching the hope of the gospel, despite the cost.

Everyday Application

1) Why did Paul consider himself “fortunate” to give his defense against the Jews’ accusations to King Agrippa? (verse 2)
As Christians, we are commissioned to live missionally. When we center our lives around worshipping the Holy One in all we say and do, seeking to honor and glorify Him with the rhythm of our lives is the natural desire of our hearts. (Colossians 3:17)
As Paul considered it “fortunate” to have the opportunity to share Christ with such an influential person, we too should evaluate our everyday opportunities where the Lord has given us favor in relationships to share the hope of the gospel.
To share the gospel is our commissioning just as it was for Paul; it will be so until the return of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. (Matthew 28:18-20)

2) In Paul’s defense presentation, why was it important for him to give testimony of his previous background as a Pharisee?  (verses 4-11)
As believers, we are commissioned to boldly share the Good News of Jesus Christ. With authentic transparency, we can point to our past and who we once were, in order to profess how we, upon seeing the light from heaven, the shekinah glory of God Jesus Christ, were transferred from the Kingdom of Darkness into the eternal Kingdom of Life and Light. Using the foundation of our past background, just as Paul did before King Agrippa, we can share the gospel as we witness to all, believers and non-believers alike. Yes, our testimony can encourage believers too! As Christians, we all struggle; having a sister or brother come alongside and give testimony of the power of the Savior will breathe fresh reminders of truth as we journey onward.
Paul appealed to a commonality between himself and King Agrippa as a platform he could use to share his faith story. We can do the same! Engage with others, ask questions, listen to their answers, and look for common ground you can use to share Christ!

3)  For what specific “crime” did the Jews desire Paul to be jailed or put to death?
Just as Paul was persecuted and imprisoned because he held unswervingly to Hope fulfilled in Christ, the very One of whom the Old Testament prophets spoke, we too can expect condemnation for the same thing. Genuine conversion to Christ will result in persecution. If we were to dig deeper into the rest of Acts 26:24-32, we would encounter a war between Dark and Light. When Salvation is preached, there will be opposition. The devil is alive and powerful, not willing to give way to the Good News of Salvation through Jesus Christ, thus there will be difficulty along the path as we carry the light of the gospel around with us in our everyday lives. Remember, as believers, we are God’s chosen people created for His purpose alone. (Ephesians 2:10) No matter how we suffer for Christ, we can seek a higher perspective, one that knows our real life is “hidden with Christ in God.” (Colossians 3:3). We can know true peace deep in our soul. (Philippians 4:7) Beyond a shadow of a doubt, we are HIS. (John 10:27-28)

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1) Take this passage (or any other passage).
2) Read it, and the verses around it,
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as you think of them.
4) Ask specific culture related questions and be ready to dig around for your answers. Google them, use www.studylight.org, or look them up in a study Bible and read the footnotes (click on the little letters next to a word and it will show you
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Sketched V Day 3 Saul, The Persecutor

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Acts 5:33-8:3
Acts 26:1-23
Psalm 110

Sketched V, Day 3

Somehow the prisoners had escaped!
Not only had they escaped, but they had literally returned to doing exactly what I had imprisoned them for in the first place: preaching in the name of Jesus.
Even now the guards were returning to the Temple to bring them back before the Council. What level of geniuses are we dealing with? Obviously, they are not in their right minds to disregard the commands of this authority.
We are the Council.
We are the teachers of the Law.
We decide if you are in good standing before God.

The more I thought about their disrespect of our authority, the angrier I became.
A few of the members of the Council laughed about a recent happening in the marketplace as we waited, and I caught the eye of the man facing me.
I’m not completely sure what my facial expression communicated, but the smile on the other man’s face dimmed and their conversation dropped several decibels. Maybe idiots aren’t only outside this group.
Scandalous disrespect for the Torah and our traditional laws is no laughing matter.

When the guards arrived with the prisoners in tow, I stared at the leader.
If I caught his eye, maybe I could convey a similar message to him as I had to my compatriot. I intensified my gaze and straightened my spine.

The high priest questioned them as to why they had disobeyed their previous orders to stop teaching in the name of Jesus and the leader had the gall to promptly reply that they were obeying God rather than man.
We are the authorities God put in place.
We are the teachers of the Law.
We are the ones who know the texts and are required to implement them.
Who is this man that implies he has heard from God and we have not?
Disgusting arrogance!

By now my temperature was rising and my hands were clenched tightly in my lap. I willed the leader to look my direction, but he continued to boldly meet the eyes of the high priest. It was a mercy he did not look my way. If looks could kill…

Suddenly Gamaliel stood and directed the guards to take the men outside. Once the doors were closed, Gamaliel addressed the group and suggested the men be released. He reasoned that in previous uprisings of this sort, incidents faded away once the leaders were gone. He instructed us to remain out of the scenario just in case they truly were speaking for the Lord.

Gamaliel is a well-respected, wise man, but my anger burned at his plan. These followers had already proven disregard for our authority, and I did not foresee that changing if we simply let them go. Thankfully, someone echoed my thoughts and agreement arose to flog the prisoners before releasing them. I barely controlled myself. Flogging? I scoffed under my breath, these traitors deserved nothing less than death.

Some time later, I found myself once again sitting among Council members as another follower stood before us. Stephen was his name. Accusations against him had been raised and we’d called him before us. The high priest asked him for the truth and suddenly I found myself listening to a history lesson. How degrading to have such a lesson from one so inferior. He covered the gambit from Abraham to Joseph to Moses to King Solomon.

My patience waning quickly, I hoped my distaste was clearly communicated each time I ignored his words and smoothed my robes, my every action mocking him with disdain. Every muscle tensed and my heart began to race as he closed his argument by saying, “You stiff-necked people with uncircumcised hearts and ears! You are always resisting the Holy Spirit. As your ancestors did, you do also. Which of the prophets did your ancestors not persecute? They even killed those who foretold the coming of the Righteous One, whose betrayers and murderers you have now become. You received the law under the direction of angels and yet have not kept it.”

The atmosphere in the room shifted.
Necks went red and white knuckles appeared.

Stephen continued as he stared to heaven, “Behold, I see the heavens opened up and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.”

The first man stood up and growled low. He broke the floodgates and a wave of men drove Stephen to the city gates. I hurried along with them, grateful my thoughts paralleled those around me. Death was coming quickly for this heretic!
Once we cleared the city gates, the men began shedding the robes and entrusting them to me. If this enabled them to more accurately select their stones and aim well, I would gratefully take care of their robes. I would be a unifying player in the destruction of this uprising.

As the stones flew, meeting their mark. Stephen cried out, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit!” He fell to his knees and cried once more, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them!” The thud of stones hitting soft flesh and others colliding mid-air lasted only minutes. As the rage lessened and the evidence of the stoning’s success was apparent, the men gradually returned to me and gathered their robes. They dusted them off, pulling them back on as though this was any normal day’s work.

As the last robe was retrieved and I found myself standing alone at the city gates, Stephen’s last words reverberated in my mind. “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.”
This sin?
Against us?
He asked God for forgiveness.

Forgiveness for me?

I shuddered at the thought, at all the thoughts that began swirling much too close to the surface, bringing a heaviness aching in my chest.
Hatred for Stephen and all followers like him silenced the thoughts.
Determined, I turned my steps back to the Temple.
Stephen would not be the last to learn their proper place at my hands.
Forgiveness? No.

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Sketched V Day 2 Saul, The Pharisee: Digging Deeper

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Finding the original intent of Scripture and making good application to our everyday lives as we become equipped to correctly handle the Word of Truth!

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The Questions

1) What is the context of this passage?

2) Why is Paul explaining his heritage? What does it have to do with his point?

3) What contrast is Paul trying to explain in this passage?

Philippians 3:4-6

“Though I myself have reason for confidence in the flesh also. If anyone else thinks he has reason for confidence in the flesh, I have more: circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; as to the law, a Pharisee; as to zeal, a persecutor of the church; as to righteousness under the law, blameless.”

Original Intent

1) What is the context of this passage?
In this passage, Paul writes a letter to the Philippian church to encouraging them to live in the truth of the gospel and let nothing stand in the way of a life fully devoted to the Lord. As Paul brings his letter to a close, he gives a personal story of his own walk with the Lord in his conversion from Saul to Paul explaining where he has come from and what he now knows to be true. He gives warnings about lies to watch for and encouragement to stand firm in truth.

2) Why is Paul explaining his heritage? What does it have to do with his point?
Paul gives an account of his pedigree because he was among the elite within the Jewish religious leaders. He was considered by the average person someone who was closer to God because of his status and his outward appearance of merit. But in this passage, Paul details his lengthy list of qualifications that humans would point to and elevate him for the purpose of discounting all of it because he knew that when it comes to the gospel, pedigree and accomplishments mean nothing.

3) What contrast is Paul trying to explain in this passage?
These verses are one snippet of Paul’s argument in this letter. The point he makes is, despite all of his education and religious fortitude, in light of the gospel, true salvation is the most important thing. True salvation recognizes that no “thing” or personal “goodness” is fit to award us merit for salvation. We can only be saved through Jesus’ work on our behalf. Nothing we do matters to gain salvation. Saul was the “perfect” Pharisee, but was spiritually lost and separated from the one true God. He is warning the Philippians to not put trust in the things of the flesh and the world, because those things are irrelevant in the Kingdom of God. The contrast comes in understanding the things of God and pursing His ways versus pursuing the things of this world and relying on ourselves. Don’t be confused by religious labels but seek true salvation!

Everyday Application

1) What is the context of this passage?
As any good pastoral leader would, Paul is warning this congregation against trappings of this world and recounting where he put his trust before he encountered Christ. He was worldly, a murder of Christians, and outspoken zealot against Christianity, but he came to truth and realized there is no eternal value in status or degree. He understood those things would fade away and earned no favor in the sight of God. Paul is the perfect example of a religious leader whose was fearful of the truth of Christianity until he encountered it. God changed his life and his perspective on worldly pursuits and ambitions. Paul’s filter for his entire life changed. As he says later in the passage, “But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ.” (Philippians 3:7)

2) Why is Paul explaining his heritage? What does it have to do with his point?
There were times in my life where relying on the fact that my parents were Christians seemed okay. I have a heritage of Christianity in my family, which somehow made me feel okay before God. Paul, in this passage, is clearly saying your pedigree, your degrees, your status, even your family history does not matter in the light of the gospel’s truth. The world then and now gives the message that obtaining things and status are the most important goals to pursue and Paul is reminding us those things mean nothing to God. Being labeled religious means nothing if there is no heart change to back that up.  Knowing Christ and having a relationship with Him is the foundation from which everything should flow. Faith in Him should matter most in our life.

3) What contrast is Paul trying to explain in this passage?
The battle for our eyes and heart to stay true to God and not be distracted by worldly pursuits is not new to the 21st century, rather as we see here, this deception has been going on for 2000 years. Be encouraged! Paul, the “perfect” religious Pharisee, encountered the one true God and became one of the most prolific missionaries in starting the New Testament church as we know it. Things of this world offer no hope, no real truth, and no consistency or foundation, but as Paul encourages us with his words, “ Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ.” (Philippians 3:8-9a)

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1) Take this passage (or any other passage).
2) Read it, and the verses around it,
several times
3) Write down your questions
as you think of them.
4) Ask specific culture related questions and be ready to dig around for your answers. Google them, use www.studylight.org, or look them up in a study Bible and read the footnotes (click on the little letters next to a word and it will show you
other related verses!). (www.esvbible.org)
5) Check your applications with other trusted Christians that you are in community with and embrace the fullness of God
in your everyday!

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Why Dig Deeper?

Finding the original meaning is a huge deal when we study Scripture and can make all the difference in our understanding as we apply God’s truths to our everyday lives.

In our modern-day relationships, we want people to understand our original intention as we communicate; how much more so between God and humanity?!

Here’s a little bit more on why we take Digging Deeper so seriously.

Study Tools

We love getting help while we study and www.studylight.org is one of many excellent resources, providing the original Hebrew (Old Testament) or Greek (New Testament) with an English translation.

Want to know more about a specific word in a verse? Click on “Strong’s Interlinear Bible” then click the word you’d like to study. Discover “origin”, “definition” and hear the original pronunciation – That Is Awesome!

Want more background? Click “Study Tools”, then pick a few commentaries to read their scholarly approach, keeping in mind that just because a commentary says it, doesn’t mean it’s true. (just like the internet :-))

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Sketched V Day 1 Saul, The Pharisee

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Philippians 3:4-6
Acts 8:1-2
Acts 9:1-2
Ezekiel 36:22-29

Sketched V, Day 1

Any man would be a fool not to envy me.

I am a Hebrew, through and through. Born in Tarsus, I was raised in Jerusalem.
I cut my teeth on the Law, and was educated in the way of our fathers at the hand of the famous Rabbi Gamaliel.
I am of the tribe of Benjamin, and my lineage is untainted by Gentile blood.
I hold the Roman citizenship so many covet by birthright.
I am truly blessed by God.

My righteousness is perfect.

I am also a Pharisee, set apart, tasked and privileged to discern and uphold the Law as it applies to our people. My zeal and passion for the Way are unmatched.

Scores of so-called “Christians” will rot in prison by my hand, men and women alike.
As well they should!
Anyone who would dare challenge our holy tradition, or our God, deserves to die.
Who do they think they are?
They think that a man has come to fulfill the Law? They are out of their minds!
Clearly, God does not stand for such outrage.
Why else would he deliver so many of them into my hands?

I uphold the inspired word of God, the Torah, in addition to the rich, important traditions our people have developed over generations. I adhere to and help enforce all 600 of our laws strictly, just as I adhere to and enforce our important traditions. Our traditions and our laws work together to pave the way to righteousness.

I lead by example, and I expect nothing less than what I myself give: perfection.
All one must do is follow the rules, like I do. It isn’t impossible. I do it every single day!
And I can thank myself for my own holiness. And God, of course…but mostly, me.
I mean, sure, He laid out the Law for us, so there’s that, but all the work I’ve put in, the way I restrain myself from all evil, that is my work alone. I have made myself a good person.

I am the one who toes the line and makes sure to keep in step with the holy traditions we have implemented.
I am the one who upholds God’s laws.
It is I who pursue and punish these Christians who fail to value our Way.

Just today, a man, a Christian named Stephen was stoned by my counterparts.
I wholeheartedly approved when they laid their garments at my feet.
I wouldn’t want any blasphemer’s blood staining my robe, either!

Although, I can’t seem to shake the look in his eyes during those final moments…
So clear. So focused. So…forgiving.
It was enough to give me pause.
For a moment, I felt like what they were doing, what we are doing, might be wrong, somehow.

But it couldn’t be.
I’m, we’re, merely upholding our Way, exactly as I, we’ve, been taught. This is the Way.
Everything I’ve ever known has been preparing me for this time, this moment.
My mission is to scrub the earth of these infidels who would challenge our, God’s, Way.
And I will succeed!

But… If I am being honest.. I know the truth.
Truth I’ll never admit to a soul, barely even myself.
Truth that haunts me.

This weight of perfection, it looms heavy in my chest these days.
Day in and day out, I wonder if this will be the day when I will fail and my humanity will rear its ugly head and I will slip up. There are so many rules, so many laws. Sometimes fear grips me because if ever my heart were known by anyone, they would see that though outwardly I am flawless, my heart is empty and cold.
And truthfully, even the outer deeds …

Make me weary.

And as much as I try to forget, my mind keeps returning to that stoning I witnessed.
That man… Stephen. I’ll never forget that moment. That man. Those eyes.
That feeling of blood on my hands….
What if God saw him as innocent?

The thought makes my insides shudder and I shut it out.
As that first stone was hurled toward him, Stephen’s eyes caught mine, and in that instant time stood still.

I still can’t shake the sense that he saw right through me. Through my titles and education. Through my citizenship, and bloodline, and associations. Through the facade I have almost managed to convince myself is real.

The others, they were so angry. They picked up their stones with religious fervor and righteous anger, I know, but in that moment it felt… Wrong.

He saw through everything. And he…forgave?

Yes, he forgave.
What if there’s something I am missing for all the things I do right?

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In this series, we are stepping into the shoes of various characters throughout history. Some are biblical, some are well-known in modern day times, and some are people our writers know personally. We do our best to research the culture and times surrounding these individuals to give an accurate representation of their first-person perspectives on life and the world, but we can’t be 100% accurate. “Sketched” is our best interpretation of how these characters view(ed) God, themselves, and the world around them. Our hope is that by stepping into their everyday, we will see our own lives a little differently!
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And keep watching for Sketched Themes to pop up throughout the year!

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Embracing God’s fullness in our lives is rooted in scripture and memorizing His word is vital to our continued growth and depth with Jesus. Tap and hold from your mobile device to download this week’s verse and make it your phone’s lockscreen!

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