Gracefully Truthful


Read His Words Before Ours!

1 Corinthians 10:31-33
Psalm 96
2 Timothy 2:8-13

I’ve experienced God’s faithfulness in my own personal journey through the gift of my husband (read my story here!), but God has faithfully in provided for our family to such a large degree, it’s shaped my view of Him and taught my heart to trust.

I always knew I wanted a family and to be a mother. With that, I’ve always felt a strong conviction to stay home with my children. Thankfully, my husband felt the same way. We decided early on (we had to decide early… that’s what happens when you have a honeymoon baby!) that staying at home would be a priority for us.

When we got married, my husband (Matt), was working as a custodian at church. He had recently left the military and was transitioning into civilian life. Money was tight from the beginning.

There have been many times that we have had $0 in our bank account.
You guys, that’s stressful!
Worry… Worry gets the best of you if you let it.
But, every single time God has provided for us.
Every. Single. Time.
Whether it was someone randomly handing us an envelope with money to buy a week’s worth of food, or the church providing us with a car when ours completely died.
I have SEEN the faithfulness of God!

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19

If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!
Matthew 7:11

Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!
Luke 12:24

My favorite story of God’s faithful providence is when Matt was preparing to go to Sierra Leone (Africa) on a mission trip. Matt felt such a huge tug from God to minister in Sierra Leone through our church and he fought it for at least a year. Finally, he decided he needed to listen to God’s call and go. We were already struggling financially.
Honestly, I was upset that he was leaving and wasn’t even sure I’d be able to make it at home.
Matt continued to trust God.
The day before Matt left, we had a knock at our front door. A good friend said, “We felt like God was telling us to support you as you listen to His call.”
We were both blown away.
When we choose to follow Jesus and His lead,
He provides!
It’s unmistakable.

Learning to trust Him to be faithful has grown me immensely,
but He’s also taught me to offer Him a sacrifice of praise, even when I don’t feel like it.
I’ve suffered with many health issues, but migraines and vertigo are two of the biggest. These illnesses are very difficult because not only are the painful, but they are also invisible and debilitating.
Illness has caused me to lose jobs,
feel hopeless,
and deal with depression.

My physical condition has mystified doctors and left me feeling defeated.
I struggled for many years asking God,
“Why?! Why me?! Why can’t I just be normal?”

After reading a blog of someone who suffered in similar ways that I had, I realized a crucial truth: I could either allow this struggle to make me angry at God, or I could lean on His faithful love.
I could either let my feelings lead my praise,
or let my praise lead my feelings.

Eventually, after much praying, crying, and despair, I chose to trust God.
In the process, I learned that I can be thankful for this ailment because it ultimately
drew me to the arms of Jesus.

As He has shown Himself faithful and taught my heart to trust in big ways and small ones, God has allowed me to lead others in worship. I felt a call to worship leading pretty early on in life and it’s yet another way God has shown Himself faithful by allowing me to this delight.

Because of a difficult pregnancy with my third child, I had to take a break from leading, which proved WAY harder than I ever imagined.
But again, faithfulness in my God.
He used this time to teach me about myself and my priorities.
He taught me to worship in my everyday mundane mother and wife activities.

“Neither in this mountain nor in Jerusalem will you worship God, but in spirit and in truth.”
(John 4:21–23) It doesn’t matter where you are, we are called to worship God in spirit and in truth, with everything we are.

As He is ever faithful to teach my heart, I am learning how to devote my “everyday-regular-cooking-meals-and-changing-diaper-self” to God – giving Him the glory for all things – and letting Him mold me into the worshipper
who loves Him in spirit and in truth.

God, I am thankful for all You’ve taught me about Yourself.
In sickness, in difficulties, in good times and in bad,
You are faithful and will never abandon.

May I ever praise You for Your good faithfulness!

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