Read His Words Before Ours!
Can I be honest with you sweet sisters for a minute?
The last year of my life has brought forth some of the hardest, darkest, days I’ve walked thus far.
I’ve shared with you bits and pieces of my story as we’ve journeyed together over the last twelve months, yet behind the scenes I’ve been in a long rollercoaster battle. Most days you wouldn’t have been able to tell anything was wrong, but deep down, the Lord was taking me on a journey.
You see, this time last year I was positive my marriage was over,
my family destroyed,
and life as I know it would never be the same.
I have spent time on my face crying out to God, asking Him what I had done to deserve such heartache, why my life was nothing that I ever imagined it to be, and how was I going to pick up the shattered pieces of my life and put them back together.
And while each question was spewed with anger and hurt,
His Word was fueled with comfort and understanding.
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27
“Cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
I’ve found comfort in the darkest moments of my life by meditating on His Word. I spent one evening during the beginning of this season typing out Scriptures that I have since taped to every nook and cabinet in our apartment. I desperately wanted a tangible way to ensure that as I went about life, when the hurt, bitterness, and sadness would make its way to the surface, I would immediately be reminded of what God’s word declares.
As the season navigated towards healing,
and now redemption is on the horizon,
I felt a tug at my heart.
It was time to turn on the music.
It’s a running joke around here in the GT Community that if there is a journey that includes worship in any capacity, I’m probably going to jump at the chance to write about it. You see, worship has saved my life, on more accounts than one, and this season was no different, I just needed to be reminded.
I had just hopped in my car one Wednesday after work when I got the courage to hit play. I turned on the new Housefires worship album and by the chorus of the song the tears began to fall.
“Mountain to Valley”
Hope you will lead the way
Peace you will be my strength
To sing in the midst of storms
And believe in Your goodness, Lord
From the mountain to the valley
From the desert to the raging sea
In the silence or the city streets
Oh Your presence always covers me
You take me in, you lead me out,
Such a journey walking with You now
When I don’t know what steps to take
When I don’t know what moves to make
This one thing I can’t escape
When I don’t have the words to say
When I can’t seem to find my way
This one thing I can’t escape
I felt as if the worship artists had spoken to Jesus about what was going on behind the closed doors of my heart and wrote this specifically for me in this season.
His peace and love was all my soul craved.
Peace in the midst of the darkest storm I was walking through.
In a season that lacked love, feeling His loving Abba Father arms around me helped break down the hardened parts of my soul, and allowed them to be mended back together by the King of Kings.
It was in that moment, when I lifted my arms in my car, and began to soak in His presence, letting the worship wash over my soul, that redemption ran free.
Can I encourage you today?
Even in the midst of such sorrow and pain,
God is still good,
and His grace is enough.
He wasn’t, and isn’t, finished with my marriage.
My husband and I are doing better than we ever have, and that I truly believe it’s because we’ve invested time, prayers, and tears into our personal relationship with Jesus.
We’ve worshiped and praised our Heavenly Father.
We’ve sought after wise counsel and had armor bearers rally beside us, making sure we weren’t left behind.
He is with us just the same whether it be the mountain top or valley.
Those dark moments crave the Light, so start praising Jesus today, my sweet friends.
He is worthy, and deserves it all.
Embracing God’s fullness in our lives is rooted in scripture and memorizing His word is vital to our continued growth and depth with Jesus. Tap and hold from your mobile device to download this week’s verse and make it your phone’s lockscreen!